I ve been having thoughts about hurting people for the past while. I guess I ve always had them, it has just gotten worse recently. There is a voice in my head telling me that I need to kill everyone, then I imagine different ways I could do it. I don t want to hurt anyone but it s getting hard to control my thoughts. So I have to hurt myself just to stop the voices, even if it s only for a little bit. I ve also been having these nightmares. They ve been keeping me up at night, so I m tired constantly. Then I have no motivation to do anything at all. I don t do the things I used to love, and I m pushing people away. I don t mean to, but I just shut down when they try to talk to me. I ve told a friend about what has been going on, but whenever he says that he is there for me or that he cares for me, deep down I just don t believe it. I don t believe that anyone truly cares for me. I just want my thoughts to stop. I want to be able to sleep the whole night in peace. I don t want to be scared to be around people because I might hurt them. I just need some advice on what to do. I want to be better. I want to be able to not hate myself every waking moment. I just want to be happy. I want all the pain to stop. I just want it to end.