Here are my symptoms:
- Depression
- Suicidal thoughts
- Self harm
- Panic attacks (have had 3)
- Alcohol abuse (which I have stopped now, but had one major episode when I called 000 and was taken to hospital)
- Social withdrawal
- Hostility
- Headaches (sometimes daily, or weekly - it varies)
- Nosebleeds (about weekly)
- Suspiciousness
- Extreme mood swings from elated to irritated, crying and furious
- Flat, expressionless gaze
- Inappropriate laughing, crying, or anger
- Odd/Irrational statements
- Forgetful; unable to concentrate
- Disorganised thoughts
- Sudden pause in conversation or blank stare, then not remembering it had happened
- Not remembering hostile, angry conversations with family and friends
- Extreme reaction to criticism (and I mean EXTREME - e.g. yelling, screaming, crying, etc.)
- Hearing/seeing/feeling things that don't exist
- Voice in my head (one person - Mark, who is almost like a voiced conscience, who I can hear, sometimes see and even feel his pulse. I can describe him. He is around 17/18. He has straight brown hair and is tall. He always wears a black t-shirt and blue jeans. His voice is neither deep nor high-pitched. He does not look like or sound like a person I have previously seen)
- Unreasonable conspiracies
- Anxiety
- Irrational or unusually risky behaviour (e.g. alcohol and valium - valium ONLY on one occasion and not since, and the assumed psychosis is NOT drug-induced - symptoms including the voice started before both the use of alcohol and valium)
I think I'm schizophrenic. HELP ME! I need answers, a diagnosis at least. Please help.