Dear Welcome to HCM We understand your concerns I went through your details. I suggest you not to worry much. You are disappointed and do behave erratically at times because of your disappointment due to life problems and anger towards your husband. These leads to manic episodes due to anger. Such situations do come under mental disorder but not mental disease. Therefore treatment is not with the help of psychiatric medicines but with psychological counseling and psychotherapy. Do consult a psychologist. If you require more of my help in this aspect, Please post a direct question to me in this website. Make sure that you include every minute details possible. I shall prescribe the needed psychotherapy techniques which should help you cure your condition further. Hope this answers your query. Available for further clarifications. Good luck.