hidear I understand your concern. Relax and throw all material from your mind Masturbation is normal physiological function of our body It is one the method to satisfy sexual pleasure in absent of partner both sex and masturbation has same and has same end result to get satisfaction so no need to worry masturbation doesn t lead to any problem in your married life But constant thinking and feeling of guilt of masturbation will effect so don t think much it is normal. you can reduce it by day gradually but constant think will lead to guilt. Psychiatrist assistance will help you to divert thought from it. Other psychological evaluation of mental status will give more idea about its need. Still have query then feel free to ask. Thank you.