The first tme i did MDMA i had the full on effects( had been smoking weed aswell). Since then ive done it 4 or 5 times each time not getting anything like the same effects. I dont feel happy but i dont feel unhappy and dont rele enjoy being around other people, even my close friends but it must be noted that i am in the noledge that i am definatly on some form of drug, it is an abnormal feeling. But none of this is intense in any way. I dont get paranoia and actually felt safer walking down the dark lane to my house than i usally would. My friends are taking the exact same MDMA or on one occasion M-Cat and feel on top of the world yet i always feel like this, perhaps feeling the good effects for around 5 minutes, thinking yes! it finally hit me! then it goes away again. Alomost like i have difficuly letting go of reality yet at the same time am still experiancing some aspects of the drug. Can you help explain this? Also the next day when i was eating a curry my heat rate eliated from my usual 60 beats per min to 84 beats per min and still felt a bit weird and did not want to commincate with others around me. ???