Welcome to HCM
We understand your concerns
I went through your problem description. I suggest you not to worry too much. From the look and feel of your description itself it is very evident that you are suffering from anxiety
disorder. Please do understand and do not reject the possibility out-rightly. Nobody agrees that they have anxiety problem in the beginning because they always think that it is a psychiatric problem (madness) and needs medicines.
It is false notion. Anxiety disorder is a state of mind and not a psychiatric disease. Anxiety disorder is curable just by lifestyle changes and learning to relax when needed. Psychotherapy
should cure you. I shall help you through healthcaremagic if you desire so.
Hope this answers your query. Available for further clarifications.
Get well soon. good luck.