Hi there ~
I understand your concerns. Since you are asking the question on a public forum, it is not confidential. I will however say that the baby is going to have some amount of the opioid
medication in its system during birth, if you have used closed to childbirth, and is very likely to go through withdrawals. You might benefit from informing your OBGYN
about the condition so that appropriate medication is initiated. It might also be helpful to get yourself detoxed as well and consult a psychiatrist
to help with the same.
I hope this helps. Take care and have a lovely day!