sir my father is with me, i am married since 7 years but i have no child, sir most of the time the events of the death day of my mother revolve around my eyes, i always feel that i was not good to my mother, some times i think that i not love my mother but i am afraid of god that he punish the people who not do good with their parents , so due to this fear i am always remembering my mother and think that i have not take good care of her otherwise i have no love for her, i frightened from god , these feelings i have most of the time, now i feel that every thing which i done in past is wrong and i was totally wrong. most of my time spent in thinking that how these thoughts came into my mind that mother should die and always try to justify myself that these are not my thoughts but than i cant beleive that these are not my thoughts,, i always feel that i did bad with my mother and i cant bring her back, when i was taking care of her when she fall down , i some time got angry with her and show aggrestion to her , i think at that time i do that for her good but now i think that my intentions towards my mother was not good, i feel her burden so i show agression to her, i tottaly loose confidence on me, when ever i will go for some good deed, i feel that a person who was not good to her mother he has no right to help any one, such person do any thing allah will not forgive him, i did very big sin, i loose my mother and my jannat, she loves me too much but i did nothing, now i cant bring her back and ask her to forgive me, she left me, and those people who are bad to their parents never find peace in this world, same is the case with me, my punishment is started and i deserve it,