For the last 8 years ive been an addict that continuously relapses. I get very depressed and compare my life to my siblings and cousins, friends etc and I dont measure up to there accomplishments. I also have episodes of extreme mania and ill stay up for days obsessing on something that in the end has no relevance or ill start projects and have big plans as in business ventures but then the depression kicks in and I have no care for it anymore. on top of all this I let people freeload off me by staying at my place and they disrespect me and its a huge trigger to use. its not my intention to let them use me I let them know they need a job and pay me but they never get a job and I have to hide my money bc I dont trust them. I wanthim to leave but he just laughs in my face. I always want to help people but I cant even help myself. I feel worthless reckless stupid angry alone. ive never seen a psychiatrist what would one say to someone like me?