Dear Welcome to HCM We understand your concerns I went through your details. I suggest you not to worry much. All these things are just your thoughts. Your thoughts do not have substance. Defining love is not possible. When you breath, eat, drink, you are actually loving self. When you sympathize for another species, you show love. When you say, I care, you actually love. Love has so many meanings and it never can be taught or learnt. it is part of existence. Just don t worry about love and affection, you have it or not etc. Concentrate on your education and career. That is what you are supposed to do and is love towards your life. Psychotherapy techniques should suit your requirement. If you require more of my help in this aspect, Please post a direct question to me in this URL. http://goo.gl/aYW2pR. Make sure that you include every minute details possible. I shall prescribe the needed psychotherapy techniques. Hope this answers your query. Available for further clarifications. Good luck.