Hello, my name is Zack.I am a 29 yr old gay male in san Antonio tx. I have been exposed to what I believe is herpes, but there are just some symptoms involving my fiancee that is putting a lot of things into question. I was having unprotected sex before we met. Not on a daily basis and not every partner was unprotected, though it s no relief or excuse. I myself had not noticed any symptoms except for diarrhea and a smelly discharge from my anus, which I honestly chalked up to be poor diet complications for the most part. My fiancee and I had discussed our sexual past and i wasn t completely honest with him, however he was terrified of contracting hiv and I had just had a hospital visit where they regularly test all patients with bloodwork for hiv. So with that in mind, and in my ignorance, I thought I was in the clear for any other stds. I didn t understand why they d test for hiv but nothing else. However my visit was not for anything related to an std. I had tonsilittis. When i came clean about having unprotected sex, we immediately went and got tested for hiv, and came back negative on both behalves. We were relieved and continued with our relationship even stronger and regularly had unprotected sex. A few months later we started having trust issues and he began questioning whether I have been faithful to him. I have not been sexually or even slightly physical with another person outside of a hug since we ve been together, and we ve been back and forth about this for awhile. In the midst of our arguments about whether I ve been faithful, he started breaking out in sores and lesions ranging in size and severity on his penis, and eventually on his hands and face, and one on his anus. He regularly has stomach problems, and says that his sores (and there s a lot at times) are extremely painful. These sudden symptoms have strengthened his conviction against me, and leaving me next to defenseless to justify anything. I m suffering from anxiety and depression, mostly because of this argument, and most people have told me to leave him. But I m determined to prove my innocence, and this would be a great start. He tells me that I m a carrier and that s why I don t show typical symptoms, and he s convinced that there s no way I could have contracted something before we got together, and it took (roughly) 6 months before he had started showing noticeable symptoms. I have neglected going to get tested for the sheer fact that I beleove I m positive for herpes, however I fear a free testing clinic would not be able to determine how long I ve had the virus, or provide us with enough information to even give me a chance to prove that I ve had this before him. I know I shouldnt have lied about my sexual past to him, and I am responsible for this debate entirely. Please help.