Hi, my name is Josiah, I have been depressed off and on for the past five months, it happened after my girlfriend ( Alexandra my ex ) broke up with me. She thought I didn't love her. Started talking to her ex and she met up with him a couple of times back in February and march. Everyday since she broke up with me I always talk to her on the phone or I always seen her in person! I worked with her everyday so no matter what except when she was with her ex for three days I always talked with her. She says she still have feelings for me and cares about me. We were supposed to move to Florida together and she was going to move down to Indian with him. ( we lived in Michigan together ) She seems so unsure of things and doesn't know what she wanted. she thought that this was fate that her ex started talking to her again after Alex and I broke up.
I left Michigan in April and moved to Florida with out her! I was trying to put myself first and do things I want, I always have been wanting to move to Florida since I was a little kid, but I keep getting depressed, I talk to her on the phone everyday some days I feel as if Alex and I are fine others times I feel as if she doesn't want to be with me, I don't know if She is telling the truth about everything? I don't understand why she talks to me everyday. It sucks wondering everyday if I can be back together with her or not. I just hate the mind games and I really don't know what to do anymore.

My whole life is around her I feel sad when I'm not with her and I feel guilty when I talk to girls. I know I wanna be with her, I know I miss her. I don't wanna start over again, I left a three year relationship for her and I stayed with Alex for 2 years and three months. I know I'm young and there are many girls out there, but if I don't stop at one girl I'll keep searching my entire life!


Honestly I don't know what to do its been five months now and I still love her she has been telling me for the past month or that she wants to get back together with me but hasn't asked me out yet? She has but more of a effort into me though she has been buying me things and giving me money until I found a job! ( I just found one and I start Tuesday ) I went up to Michigan last week and brought her grandma back to see Alex's mom graduate from college. She seemed to happy to see me and she said she had butterfly when she seen me. ( I didn't tell her or her mom that I was driving up to Michigan. ) While I was up there I seen that she has changed a little she wanted to do things with me she ask if I wanted to go to the movies and she wanted to take me to a lake that I never have been to that she loved.
Alex said she is moving down to Florida now and wants to be with me Some of her stuff is already at her grandmas house.

She says she wanted to take things slow when she gets back with me and i';m not sure if she is just trying to use that as a cover up or not.
Anyway how can I trust her again and what should I believe. I know when I was up there last week I was really happy to be with her and she seemed like she was also.