Dear Welcome to HCM We understand your concerns I went through your details. Epilepsy, depression and COPD are not diseases which have no cure at all. All these can be managed beautifully and cured. I think you are reading the wrong lines. Even people with life threatening diseases never think about suicide, instead they realize the value of time and do enjoy the life. When they, who cannot expect their diseases to be cured, can enjoy their life, why can t you, when you do not have any problems which cannot be cured? Work with your psychiatrist for a good management program and cure. If you require more of my help in this aspect, please use this URL. http://goo.gl/aYW2pR. Make sure that you include every minute details possible. Hope this answers your query. Available for further clarifications. Good luck.