i was an average performer all my life. I am Devansh Mehta, based at meerut. Sir i am facing problem for four years.I have been socially disgraced and defamed. Ever since I went to college people have been misbehaving with me. I went to mba college and people used to misbehave with me. Due to serious problem i decided to go to prostitute and end my life. After visiting prostitute i tried to end my life but was unsuccessful. But the people in my hostel came to know about it and they spread it all over. My career has been ruined. I am highly depressed. People talk bad about me.I want to end this suffering please help me. People who used to study with me are successful today and i feel bad, i want to achieve fame and respect but that does not seem to help. I cann t think of what to do and whenever i try to do something constructive, negative thoughts overpower and i leave everything, after my mba i came back to my mother, i had lost my father during my mba and that had a huge impact on my moral, somehow my mother tried to control me and i did mpharma scoring 70% but wen i did jobs after that i left them within a year, coz people didnot want me there and my college mates had spread my image everywhere, i took grudges from everyone and left the job, abusing my seniors and colleagues alike through sms, because of which my mother had to suffer and face those who came to my house to settle the matter, i want to do well but somehow due to others success around, or my failure in past, i dont do anything and end up thinking that i am spoilt and ruined, i cannot stop thinking about my image and whenver my family tries to make me happy i end up being more sad as i dont belong to this place and i dont deserve this, and i am of no use. I m frustrated, i dont sleep in the night and wen i do i wake up early, i have developed strange habbits of keeping my hands close to my chest unconsciously and also i keep on roaming around not doing anything, sometimes just stand there and stare and not do anything, i am not aware what is happening and what should i do and will be able to do anything. please could you help. Whenever people try and talk to me to help me do something or tell me to do something, they tell me that i try and find out ways to not to do it and convince myself that it is of no use to do anything as such i am spoillt and ruined and people and society will not accept me. help please.