I m 37 year old female. I feel I m in depression.sometimes I want to end my life.living for my 8 year and 5 year old daughters.but not able to care about them even after I wish so.frequent mood changes especially before menstual cycle and ovulation affects me.my head bcomes heavy and sometimes i feel some thing is moving inside my head.i hate to hear voice and see light.sometimes i need to put ear phone into my ear and listen to loud music to escape. I feel I have to go away from this family with my children to any place where I get peace of mind.thinking about my kids future makes me helpless.but I feat if things goes on like this I will become a burden for them. my main problem is my husband. .after my marriage I had to resign my job and was living in a plantation area for 7 years.after that my husband lost that job .now we are living in a city.all through these 10 years of marriage life I went through so many difficult situations I never faced before marriage.the principles and basic nature of my husband is different.I can t tel he is cruel.but he never took care of me and my feelings when we were in that plantation area even then I was carrying .I had to resign my job at the time of marriage.it was his condition .after that he could not provide me anything except food and shelter.I was isolated in that estate.he is not much keen in socialising.always he thinks about money and materials.wen a problem arise he has a tendency to leave the place.in prof.life also he do like this.after our marriage he changed five jobs.after losing all these jobs he was not getting jobs for six months.among our family members also we lost our esteem.. From the beginning g itself he was not at all concerned about my feelings.he always thinks about his problems.I suffered all these for past 10 years for my kids.anyway I have to tel you he is not a cruel nan who physically and mentally torture me.he never does it. His nature is if I m OK he will make use of me.if I m not he will ignore me,won t come near me.in my problems and fears I was always alone.even my parents was not there.no friends for me too. After suffering all these lonelyness and set backs in life now I feel everything is a burden Living with this person won t do any good .I m not good in English.I was a teacher in my native.I lost confidence in my subject.not in a mental position to try for a job. Please help me.