Hello, I ve had anxiety symptoms for years. When stressed, I d bang my head off of walls and rock to cope. EXCESSIVELY. Chronic migraines from poor food, then due to using corn syrup as a substitute I was thrown into add/adhd medication hell. After these drugs were refused to be taken, as ritalin and like drugs are cocaine-methamphetamine based, from a chemical polar-switch depression was the diagnosis. The depression medications(prozac, imipramine, etc) made me mentally ill- homicidal and suicidal ideologies, etc. I quit taking any all together. All along, (- everything in reviewing now and piecing past skills and memories I couldn t remember due to medications,) is VERY on point with autism spectrum disorder. intellect, pattern recognition, mathematical gifts, etc/ But no doctor will acknowledge due to intellectual and verbal skills. The years of coping have giving me varicose veins from doing multiple suicide jobs and highly illegal working-hour schedule/ I can t find a doctor to aid treating (as my previous practitoner lied for almost ten years about treatment options. And from many years of mistreatment and emotional/ psychological/sexual abuse, I am a PTSD case, who has never had a stable job from these sleep issues and social-anxieties. Can t qualify for ODSP due to lack of a proper practitioner. Do I sue my doctor, -leave this country? Ceratonin levels are uneven, REM cycles are 3- 3 1/2 hours between, and the more I read about the side effects of ritalin-era medications, the more I find a correlation to cardio-vascular issues. Started having them since I was taking these medications, dismissed as anxiety or growing pains when i was 16. I do try to take care of health through diet, but because of this- all my claims are waived as paranoia. anxiety related/ Because I ve coped to communicate, but this doesn t always work. Never had a job for more than a few months, with a cpl exceptions, but saying I m okay to work. I m at a crossroads as to previous neglects and traumas coping undiagnosed or supported through constant homelessness from these symptoms/ what do I do? I don t know where to start- and psychiatry is all about pill pushing-which I m not interested obviously from a past of unaccountability, and mentioned side effects. I ve been almost catatonic for the better part of the last 7 years, but allegedly fine to work at a coffee shop, or factory although when I am on my feet for two long I have extreme, and often dangerous spells of vertigo. All this coping brings migraines from hell- I am resourceful, and now starting to have TMJ type symptoms, or from constant clenching, that I can t prevent. IDK anymore. That s my history. My doctor really sucked, but made enough money giving me magic beans that never helped and are still messing up my life :/ Free-health care isn t what it s cracked up to be when you can t get someone to actually have the time to understand that the psychological/neurological symptoms are impacting my physical health. -I know it was long, But I feel necessary to understand this springboard of progression that overall has not been much in my control. if you have advice on how to get a proper assessment, or to classify this to aid proper-treatment, well that d be a life changer. I wanted to practice accupuncture and assist people with anxiety/autism issues like myself, but I can t even get grounded enough to afford a car let alone career with all these issues compounding. But I m thin and my blood-pressure stats are great. so okay to work. lol