43, 205 female. Degenerative disc disease, lordosis, kyphosis, bulging disc(s), possible hernia, def pinched nerves and having a myriad of symptoms resulting from tremors to excruciating pain in all extremes; mainly in the back. Seriously, how do I encourage doctors to actually get me a treatment plan? FINALLY, got to see a neurologist expecting some expertise. After fifteen minutes of a psychological interrogation I learned he might be able to help me (somehow including a bone graph to my neck) w/o explanation, details or anything. I had my first trigger for PTSD in ten years the eve of that appointment. I hate drug addicts and alcoholics as much as this man. I really enjoy being able to live enough to enjoy my children. I m ready to give up. Seriously, I have suicidal thoughts when I am in so much pain. I do because I am taking 15mg ms contin @12, 10mg Lortab@6 (or less than), meloxicam @24 and sometimes it s not enough. I ve been offered MORE drugs, but refuse. Somehow I think the healthcare system would prefer I follow through with suicide despite their getting paid. Is there something wrong with me that s making them not want to treat me? Maybe I need to see a certain type of doctor? I just don t understand why things are not working .