Dear Welcome to HCM We understand your concerns I went through your details. I can understand. You must know what anxiety and panic attack are. Anxiety is also called fight or flight syndrome. Fight and flight syndrome is a defense mechanism of your body. This defense mechanism, if not working, can endanger your existence. Therefore anxiety is must. You are having anxiety when you are at a crowd because you fear your anxiety symptoms itself, not the crowd or the area. Once you understand this fact and once you learn to relax and ignore these symptoms, you will b able to manage yourself without medicines. Psychotherapy methods are t be designed according to your needs. Please consult a psychologist online or offline. If you require more of my help in this aspect, please use this URL. http://goo.gl/aYW2pR. Make sure that you include every minute detail possible. Hope this answers your query. Further clarifications are welcome. Good luck. Take care.