I am taking a lot of pain meds. I take pergs 10, motrol 800, gabapentin 300, tramadol 50, I have rhemotiod arthertis.I am 47, and I have had r a for 18 years. I am now taking the r a med - xeljanx 5 mg . I feel no relieve only when I take zanxes 2 mg... then I sleep ! I feel no pain . All I want is to feel no pain .so I want to sleep all the time. You understand ? I took 30 zanxes in 2 days I don t remember nothing except asking my 20 year old son what zanxes 2 what will it do to me. I just remember taking one. .BUT IT PUT ME OUT! my ex husband and mom called BHL ...SAFETY PLAN FOR MOBILE CRISIS RESPONCE SERVICES. I JUST REMEMEMBER TWO POLICE OFFICERS AND CASE WORKER. THAT WAS ON THE 19TH. I DONT WANG TO OVER DOSE BUT NOTHING HELPS WITH MY PAIN. SO I END UP TAKING MORE AND MORE AND SLEEPING PILLS. I HAVE BEEN BLEEDING WHEN I GO TO THE BATHROOM . ( it Is not my period ) I have my tubed tied and I no longer have them . Any ways and my legs have many bruises like I have been beaten up. ( I heard taking alot of pain meds can cause bleeding and bruising . I don t need mental ward treatment Like my parents think ... I need some one to understand me ..my issues . I should have died from over dose three times or four . But nope not yet. God has me for a reason . When I over dose and out of it for days my elderly parents 86 & 85 of age They simply don t know what to do with me. I am temperperaly staying here til I find a place to be with my ex. Husband He loves me and is worried about my addition to zanxes and pain pills. That one day or night I wont wake up. Right now. Your my best friend. Me telling you my issues .going on and on. I will call my Dr and tell him that I have been bleeding . And the bruising. BUT CAN YOU GIVE ME ADVISE . MY EX DOESNT WANT ME TAKING ANY PAIN PILLS BUT I NEED THEM . HE SAID DRUGS OR HIM...I AM YOUNG LOOKING.AND MY R A DR SAID I LOOK GREAT FOR HAVING R A... ..BUT I HURT!! PLEASE TALK TO ME. WHAT DO I DO ? Thanks for listening to Me! HAVEA BRIGHT SHINNING DAY!,!