I ve been on xanax for years 3 mg per day i split in halves for PTSD from childhood chronic sexual and physical mental abuse. I am disabled on medicare, have sustained injuries form MV accidents (none my fault, have perfect driving record) am now on opiates and 3 soma a day. I ve never used illegal drugs, (smoked weed in the past, but hate it, makes me paranoid) don t drink and never been close to an OD. Now my pain doc wants me off the xanax or get a psych doc to prescribe and I ve called 20 literally and no one wants to give it. Ive been on it my whole life, tried to stop and i completely lose it. Major panic attacks and anxiety only xanax helps. Ive tried celexa, zoloft, paxil and another SSRI and they weird me out. The drug stores hassle me, some refuse refills, calling it the holy trinity and again, IVE NEVER HAD AN ISSUE. I am responsible, very successful but cursed with my no fault 6 blown discs, osteo arthritis sciatica and recent bad knee sprain. I need my meds and live in terror Im going to be cut off. I d rather die than suffer unpin and panic. What can I do?