Welcome to healthcare magic.Suboxone
is a strong pain killer and you should not have stopped it abruptly.
You should be careful to maintain your schedules to get this drug as per your requirement.
The medicines you have tried as a replacement for this drug may help you some part but can not fully replace this medicine and you may grt withdrawal side effects.
You should know your budget before going for treatment because there is no service without charges on this earth.
There is no point in getting depressed and crying foul and blaming others for your inadequacies.
It will make you only feel more sick.
You should start Suboxone in the previous doses, if there is delay in getting it please visit a physician in your locality to get yourself prescribed with suitable medicines to avoid withdrawal side effects.
I hope the advice will be helpful for you.