Dear Welcome to HCM We understand your concerns I went through your description. I suggest you not to worry much. Masturbation is natural and it cannot decrease your health or it cannot reduce the sexual powers, for sure. But anxiety associated with it definitely give you sleepless nights. If you are worried about masturbation can harm your sexual ability, why not control it? Instead of finding a solution for the problem, you are just worrying about the problem. Worrying cannot give you answers. In my opinion, you do not have any of the problems as described by you. it is just your anxiety. The problems are in your thoughts. You might need psychological counseling., I am more than happy to provide telephone psychological counseling through healthcaremagic. Contact me through customer care, www.healthcaremagic.com. Hope this answers your query. Available for further clarifications. Good luck.