hello dr, i dont know what to do anymore....in 2000 they diagnosed me with lupus, i was 23 and did not do what the docs told me to do so then i ended up in the hospitial with resportary failure and the dr sain my systematic lupus turned to systematic scleroderma from there i went down hill, because my food was getting styck liquids they would have to dialate me every week, they had a meeting about my situation and because of my age they felt that with dialating me so much there was a good chance that my ephogus would rip so theythought an esophygyctmy would be best, i did fine up yoo 2007 when i had my first mayjor stroke as you can inagine i went through hell but the dr were so amazed how fast i came back, then i moved to florida by my momand had another stroke went to rehab and all that fun stuff, but the doctors said i was not ready to leave and i went against there orders which was the BIGGEST mistake thhen i had my third one, but now my esophogusctmy started giving me trouble where thry connected my stomche a little ledge formed and my pills wiuld get stuck and i couldntfigure out hor to get them down, i have acid reflux if not every night its pretty damn close, i sleep sitting straight up my gastrolgys did a swallowing test and he let my husband watchand it would get stuck where my intestines were and last week this is really gross but i had a bowel movement in my pants on the floor it was a site to be seen but my husband noticed that the food didnt digest at all! oh ya i had a complete historectmy in 2008 which i have a really hard time with depression, i just want my happy back, morphine 60mg 3 day been on for 10 years morphinee ir 30mg as needed nexium40mg coumidid 6mg wellbroution 150 been on for 6 years cymbalta 60mg. pleaseplease help meplease