HI I am a 53 year old woman dealing with terrible anxiety right now. My 35 year old son took his life on June 26, 2016. I cried a lot in the beginning and the last 2 weeks they have put me on Xanax which I did terrible on. Couldn t eat wouldn t get rid of the anxiety ended up in ER last Saturday. Monday they switched me to Ativan 1 mg every 8 hours or as needed. When I took it every 8 hours from Monday to Wednesday morning I did good. Had a follow up with my dr Wednesday morning and she said just use as needed. I took one Wednesday night at 10 pm. Pit in stomach growing, body tremors, muscles tighten and spasm. Was fine until 5:30 pm Thursday day. Symptoms coming on so I took a 1 mg Ativan. Was fine. Symptoms went away in half hour to 45 minutes. When I woke this morning ( Friday) I was already in a full blown anxiety attack when I opened my eyes. Shaking, pit in stomache, muscle spasms and tightening. I took the Ativan and it took almost 4 hours to feel better. Can I do a half a dose? Is there something better to take? I am seeing a grief therapist for 2 weeks now