As you yourself have realized, you are addicted to avil
. Knowing what the problem is only half the solution. You should understand that addiction is a disease and cannot be overcome only with will power. You need medicines which will prevent withdrawal symptoms
as well as prevent relapse. Therefore, it is advisable to consult a deaddiction specialist/psychiatrist
for proper management. Your hesitance to go to a doctor even when you are facing so many problems is not good for your physical and psychological health.