I have developed an eating disorder along with excessive alcohol consumption that I feel is a result from a very emotionally abusive relationship. I feel my self esteem has never been so low as it is now and I am constantly fighting depression. I have recently ended things with this person but in the past I always go back to him eventually. I would like to know strengh training excercises or methods that I can use in order to build up my sense of self worth and avoid running back to the abuse and also to avoid toxic relationships like this again. I do not wish to seek counseling, I want to recover on my own.