.. I have battled depression all my life, I don t dwell on the bad childhood I lived. I have always been strong minded and felt with anything alone. But lately I have such bad depression and don t know how to deal with it. I m not self destructive type. But I m filled with such anger and rage, and I can t get any help. Live with pain everyday I wouldn t wish on anybody. I m worried I m getting to a breaking point and will snap. Never hurt anybody innocent. Can t say the same for woman, child, and animal abusers. I despise them and think about how bad I want to hurt one as much as they hurt others and let them suffer like I do. All I ever done is help people and been shit on so much. Here I sit alone in the world.