Hello, I have a real big deli ma and don t know what to do. I have been a very ill women, 63 yrs old and just recently moved to Southwest Mo with my husband, as he cant let me be alone. So we moved here to retire and i have been disabled since 2005. I have so many pain issues and have been being treated by a very caring and smart Dr. of Pain Management. I can not get any medical help here, where we moved to. Yes, i am on opiates, and i take them as directed on the bottle. I do not abuse my meds, one bit. I am hearing that, if you take opiates, your an addict. That is so wrong, if i am a addict, so be it. I refused to live in pain as i was terribly in, in 2004 & 2005. It took years to get me on a pain regiment that actually let me live some quality of life. I was bed ridden for years afraid to even take any kind of pill, I just couldn t take the pain I suffered with any longer. So, with much discussion with my husband, my Primary Care Dr said i should see a pain management Dr and see if he could help me with the terrible pain i was having. I was already in terrible back pain from a bad fall i had at 44 yrs old. I have herniated and bulging discs in my lower back. I cant even compare it to labor pain i had with my three children. I had natural child birth. I didn t want to affect my babies with any medication for pain, so i refused any help for the pain. But to live with that pain every day, is so depressing and no will to live. I was young and full of life, now i am 63 and with my TWO pain meds, One ER and the other break thru pain. any other meds that they felt would help me, i said, if this does t help me, then thought of surgery for the back. NO,one would touch me, because they couldn t tell me it would work, and to be ridden of pain. NO, we cant promise you that. In fact, they said it could be worse then it was already. Just couldn t even think what that would be like. Then i fell at age 50, at Graceland, and broke my leg. I was casted till i recovered. Then I had to have knee surgery due to a torn meniscus. After 4 months of therapy I was still in horrible pain. I went to 9 Ortho Specialists in San Diego, after every one of them said i had RSD. What the heck is that? I asked. If your a Dr. you should know what that is, then my husband wrote a letter to the Surgeon General of the United States, asking why i couldn t be seen at Naval Hospital San Diego,? As he is a retired Navy Chief for 22 yrs. A letter came and authorized me to see the TWO Ortho Specialist, thinking they wouldn t be covering a mishap during the knee surgery. After them seeing me on many appointments, they both came in the room and diagnosed me with RCPD I guess it wasn t all in my head. Well hello, I have better things to do then see Dr s the rest of my life. So, now to this day i am writing to you wondering what i am going to do, the rest of my life? Yes, my pain is real, and its bad. Why wouldn t i not want to take a pill to alive ate the pain i have every minute of the day. My meds help me, I just cant understand why we pain sufferers have to be punished due to people that don t value their lives. I value mine, and i take what helps me feel less pain, so that i can have some quality of life. Why would anyone with a heart want to take that away from a person. I have had MRI s Scans, X-Rays, you name it, I have had it done. It doesn t stop there, I have of late, been diagnosed with Fibro pain, and rheumatoid arthritis in my right hand, Broke my left foot last year, and have now got the RCPD in my left foot. All i want from a Dr here in Southwestern MO to help me not be in pain. It doesn t have to even be opiates but something for pain that will help me? Please reply what i am supposed to do? Please answer my plea, Would you want to be in pain everyday? I would think not. I hope you wouldn t. Can you help me or not? It seems moving here was a big mistake. As it was the last thing I was even worrying about. But, guess what, No Dr will help me here. What do I do?? I need medical help and cant even get it. I know for a fact if i run out of the two meds i take, things will be horrible as like any medication to quit cold turkey, could kill me. Do those deaths warrant a percentage as well? Probably not. I cant even go to a emergency room, without being labeled. Who will believe me? I am new to the area and moving from the west coast, what would you do, if i was your patient, and i came to your ER. Thank you for listening, the president just said on TV that I should be able to retain my previous illnesses. I believe this is ONE. Please can anyone with a MD after your name, with the oath you took to be excepted as a MD.??