Good that you came to HCM
The way you wrote your problem, in itself clarifies the restless state you are in.
Help is at hand.
Psycho therapeutic techniques are so advanced today that there is an answer for everything.
Also you need to understand life situations and learn to think clear and positive.
and yoga can streamline body metabolism
and thinking process.
can help you in changing life style.
Consult a psychologist
Wish you good future.