Hi, I don t know whats wrong with me, I have not been diagnosed with any illness but I have not visited the doctors since I have been experiencing these horrible thoughts. I get visions of hurting innocent people, if I am having a conversation with someone I ll picture them sat there with no head and blood everywhere, when I am at home, I hide knifes as I get tempted to use them, either on me or another person. I m the calmest person ever and would never harm a hair on somebodys head, but once somebody annoys me, I shake with anger, my blood boils and I just want to deal with it in my own hands. I love my family, friends and boyfriend to pieces, I would never do anything to harm them, ever. I just hate these thoughts, I ALWAYS argue with myself, this may sound so silly but its like one part of my brain/mind is evil and the other part is good and innocent. I also get the fear people are trying to poison me when they give me food or put bugs/spiders in my food, I usually eat the meat off the bread just incase there is a spider or something on the bread. I can sometimes tell what others think of me, I sometimes hit my head when my bad thoughts come because I m scared of a bad thing happening to a close person I love (if im having the thoughts about them). I get so irritated and angry, I can make faces out of near enough any shape, I talk to myself all the time and argue with myself A LOT. My mind doesnt agree with anything nice I say about somebody. I just want to feel normal and like everybody else. I avoid social situations as I m a quite shy person and it is having a big impact on my life, to the point where I can t join a proper lesson in my School i sit on my own in a room with a teacher because I get paranoid that others are whispering and laughing about me, or giving me dirty looks, I get visions of standing up and punching them. I m a very angry person but also very calm. My paranoia is really bad, I always think people are looking at me and thinking bad things about me, I sometimes think I can read their mind. Please help me?