I have bipolar 1, but my symptoms or episodes aren't the same anymore. I used to have great highs of energy and happiness. Now its depression, frustration, anxiety, irritable, sadness, hopelessness. I went to the hospital last year for suicide thoughts. They were awful. They said after 2 days and talking to me once, that I was Borderline personality disorder. That I was manipulating and it all just didn't sound like me. I always do for others first, to a fault. Anyways, they cancelled my insurance and have tried local clinics. They told me no meds, its all in my mind. That sleep is over rated. I have always had insomnia. I don't know what to do. I don't have money due to not being able to work. Can symptoms get worse with age, change, be a different diagnoses? I am at my wits end.