HI Well come to HCM I really appreciate your concern, let me tell you that all the antipsychiatric drugs exert the same side effect (More or less) important is how exactly you react to the condition that you have, how much you are willing to come out of this condition even without the medicines, if you are worry abut the toxicity of medicines then you better try to come out of this condition even without the medicines, and you can do this, try some exercise, yoga, meditation, relaxation therapy, be positive, bring back your confidence, try self counseling, control negative thought, face the reality, find out the right option for any problem, hope this information helps, take care.