Hi there ~
I am trying to understand your situation and it seems to me that you are having problems with using medications and going off of nicotine
usage (cigarettes). I think that you are also seeing a psychiatrist who is prescribing all the medications that you mention. I would ask you to consult your psychiatrist regarding the kind of treatment that you need to be taking to help you get better. I hope you consult a psychiatrist
so that you will find the right kind of answers. Going off of your medications cold
turkey is not the answer. I hope this helps.
Take care and have a lovely day!