From the description you give of your symptoms, you could be suffering from depression
. Both of these conditions can be treated with psychotherapy
, medication management, or both. If you are not comfortable with taking your problems to a therapist, then I suggest you consult a good psychiatrist
in your area who can diagnose you properly and prescribe you the appropriate medication(s) to help with your presenting symptoms. There is hope out there and help as well. I hope this helps orient you to a possible solution and I certainly hope you feel better very soon.