Welcome to HCM
We understand your concerns
I went through your detailed description. I suggest you to immediately find a psychiatrist
in your area for further treatment. If your description is truly what is actually happening, you must be suffering from multiple personality disorder
, impulse control disorder
and possible schizophrenia
. Therefore I suggest you to find a psychiatrist immediately. But I can assure you, you will not kill anyone.
Alternatively, you can consult one of our psychiatrists online through this same site. Every details are available in the home page.
Hope you understand the depth of the situation. Available for further clarifications.