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We understand your concerns
I went through your description. I suggest you not too worry too much. As per theory, sperm needs suitable liquid base to survive even it is inside the vagina. Vaginal mucous membranes and the liquid base keeps it alive for almost 48 hours. Without the liquid base, vaginal mucous membrane and suitable warm atmosphere, every sperm cell will die. In that case, it cannot live with soap!
Stop being obsessive about these thoughts. You are being Obsessive, means you might have OCD
(Obsessive Compulsive Disorder
). A companion of paranoid disorder
. You should talk to your psychiatrist
. See a psychotherapist and seek OCD therapy.
I can help you through telephone counseling and psychotherapy
if you come through customer care, www.healthcaremagic.com
Hope this answers your query. Available for further clarifications.