Sounds like you need a good, healthy diet and a little tuning up. Lose weight if you are
overweight. Keep up or even increase the exercise. Increase the vegetable intake, especially
antioxidants. Add some tomatoes and olive oil to your daily routine for the BP. Avoid, at all costs, junk food. Stick with fresh vegetables and whole grains. For panic attacks/
depression, add omega 3 (fish oil) and 5-HTP (a precursor to seratonin... a
neurotransmitter that helps the brain) to your daily routine. Cut back, or cut out the meat and dairy products. Eat to live, don't live to eat. Work toward getting off the drugs and on to some supplements. Don't trust doctors... I found out the hard way that they don't know how to heal, they just throw prescriptions at you hoping you'll pay your bill and go away. Go to my
diabetes info webpage and explore the links I provide. http://www.geocities.com/seabulls69/Type_II_Diabetes.html
Now, as far as the psychological aspect is concerned, you need to become a master of
cognitive therapy as I have. This will help you overcome adverse circumstances of all sorts including your panic attacks (which is what's causing the fast heartbeats etc.) Read my "Antidepressant That Works" page and explore the links I provide there. You will learn a whole new way of thinking that will open up all kinds of good feelings for you. This is yet another tried and true method. It got me out of suicidal depression. The only medication I take today is a little bit of
Metformin for the diabetes. I am so much happier and healthier today than I was just two years ago (I almost died), that I can't begin to tell you. I'm not going to blow smoke up your dress, this is hard work. It's going to take some patience, diligence, and time. But the benefit of feeling really good and getting off the pharmaceuticals, will more than make up for the weeks of effort. Here's the link:
http://www.geocities.com/seabulls69/AntidepressantThatWorks.html
Most of all, learn as much as you can about alternative healing. You can't know too much about this stuff. Here's a couple of good places to start:
http://www.drmcdougall.com
http://www.phifoundation.org