Question: I took sulpitac 300 mg from May 2014 because I was getting negative thoughts. Along with that I also took pacitane to remove its side effects. I took it for 8 months and then stopped it in XXXXXXX 2015 because it was not suiting me and it was making me feel sick and had other side effects. After I stopped them I felt a little better but then I started taking arip mt 5 mg and kemadrin 2.5 mg and then again I started feeling dizzy and sick and got headaches. I feel that arip and kemadrin are ruining my brain and I can't think properly the way I used to think before taking the medicines. I feel that I don't need any of these medicines and that I'll be fine without them. If I stop them will I be fine? Because I feel that I was better without any of the medication in May 2015 and that I just needed a bit of counseling and no medicines.

People were irritating me in my school in April 2014 so whenever I was studying I was getting irritated and negative thoughts were coming to me. I didn't know why I wasn't able to study but later I came to know it was because of that. Also whenever I was reading my eyes used to jerk because of which I couldn't study and I thought there was a problem with my brain but actually it was my eyes. But I got my eyes checked in October and I had already started sulpitac 300mg and pacitane 2mg in May and it had too many side effects which made me sick and all. I went to the psychiatrist again in XXXXXXX 2015 and I told him to stop it so he lowered it and finally stopped it. The day I stopped it I felt much better but the next day I had to take arip mt 5mg and kemadrin 2mg and then I started getting headaches and thoughtlessness and again I felt that something is wrong with my brain. I feel I was much better without these medicines and I just needed counseling and if I had got my eyes checked before taking the medicines then I would have been fine. I want to stop these medicines now and I want to ask you if I'll get better without these medicines. Because I have my board exams in 1 month and I need to study and I don't want this illness during this time. I feel I'll be fine without these medicines.

My eyes started jerking from March 2014 and I couldn't read because of that. I didn't know what was happening. I went to a counselor and told him I can't concentrate. He told me to go to the psychiatrist for medication. The psychiatrist prescribed sulpitac and pacitane because I told him that I was getting negative thoughts. Actually it was because of jerky eyes because of which I couldn't concentrate(I came to know that later) and not because of negative thoughts. But the medication started in May 2014 and I thought that my eyes would stop jerking because of sulpitac. But they didn't. Then I didn't know what was the problem. I told my parents in October 2014 that my eyes were jerking. They took my to the eye doctor and he prescribed eye drops. Then finally my eyes stopped jerking. But I had already started sulpitac in May 2014 which I already mentioned. So it had already caused so many other problems so I again went to the psychiatrist in December 2014 and told him to stop sulpitac. He stopped it in XXXXXXX 2015 and I felt much better. But then he prescribed arip mt 5mg and kemadrin 2.5mg and then they also are causing many problems. I feel I don't need any of this medication and it was all because of the eyes jerking because of which I couldn't concentrate. Now if I stop the medication(arip mt and kemadrin) will I be fine?I want to get back to the way I used to be before march when I was fine and didn't have any of these problems which I'm facing now because of jerky eyes(which stopped jerking because of the eye drops prescribed by the eye doctor) and because of these medicines. That's why I want to ask you if I stop these medicines then will I be better? And I'm hoping that the effect what these drugs/medicines had on me would go away if I stop them and I hope they don't shorten my lifespan.

It all started with my eyes jerking in March 2014. My eyes used to jerk while reading. So I wasn't able to study because of that and so I didn't study. So I did badly in my exam in April which got me very angry and I felt that I had become less intelligent(which was not the case because it was all because if my eyes jerking) and so I started acting dumb and people started making fun of me. I was also very angry with myself because of my marks and the people making fun of me which made me even more angry. I started becoming violent with my parents and started throwing things so I was taken to the counselor who told me to go to the psychiatrist. The psychiatrist prescribed sulpitac 200mg first and later he made it 300mg and also prescribed pacitane 2mg. Before taking these drugs I didn't feel like committing suicide or the world is going to come to an end or anything. I was just getting angry because of my eyes(but I thought that it was a problem with my brain and not my eyes). When I started the drugs they started causing more problems and I couldn't think properly, I got a mask like face, distonia, I started feeling sick(not sad), I had trouble walking(I used to be a very good tennis player before the drugs and after starting them I couldn't hit the ball only) my eyes started jerking even more. Because of all this I didn't feel like living only, I stopped getting laughter and I felt that it was better to die. I got my eyes checked very late in October 2014, the doctor prescribed eye drops, my eyes stopped jerking but all those other problems like dying, feeling sick and all didn't go because I was still taking the drugs. I went to the psychiatrist in XXXXXXX 2014 and told him to stop the drugs because they were causing problems. He stopped those drugs and prescribed arip mt and kemadrin in place of them because I told him all my other problems such as feeling sick and not being able to do things (I didn't know that these were side effects of these drugs till today). Now since I came to know that these are side effects of these drugs, I feel that by stopping arip and kemadrin which are like antidotes I'll feel much better. So will I feel better by doing this? And if I stop them (or even if I don't) will they shorten my lifespan or cause other problems later in my life?

The drugs worsened my concentration so that's why I want to stop them and because of the side effects of kemadrin and arip which I'm taking now. Will the positive effects which the drugs had in me for 8 1/2 months go away if I stop them? I want it to go away because I was fine the way I was before March and before taking them and I want to get back to it. And what are the functions and side effects of kemadrin 2.5 mg and arip mt 5mg?And I stopped getting angry because the jerky feeling in my eyes went away because of the eye drops and I'm only waiting to to stop them when I visit the psychiatrist next because I feel that I'll be fine without them

What do you mean by "when a person loses contact with reality"? Because when I started taking sulpitac something like that started happening. I didn't know what was going on in my life when I was taking sulpitac and when I stopped I felt much better and I knew what was going on. I feel I don't have any psychiatric illness, it was just because of the eyes jerking.

I visited my psychiatrist 2 weeks ago, he told me not to stop the medicines, but I insisted I want to stop them. He told me to take them but I didn't. I felt much better after stopping the drugs but I told him that I will go to a different psychiatrist and take opinion from him. I visited another psychiatrist yesterday, he said that I should not have been given all these drugs. He said that I was just anxious and checked my pulse and said that it was high. He said that my old psychiatrist gave these drugs to treat the symptoms, not the diagnosis. He said that the diagnosis was that I am anxious. He prescribed despol 25mg and clonotril 0.25mg. I've started taking them from yesterday night. All the side effects of sulpitac, pacitane, arip and kemadrin have gone such as mask like face, dryness of mouth, losing contact with reality etc. I stopped getting laughter and stopped crying and my face was expressionless while taking sulpitac. All this has gone away but these drugs have caused permanent problems- I feel that I've got a thought disorder and I can't think properly the way I used to think last year before taking these drugs. Sulpitac has ruined my brain and my intelligence. Whenever I try to study I just don't feel like studying because I'm worried about my life and my life is more important than my studies. Sulpitac has ruined my way of thinking and I didn't have this thought disorder before taking it, it started 3 months after taking it. Can you give my some advice about this and tell me your opinion on this and tell me if I've actually got a thought disorder or I'm just thinking that I've got it but actually I've not? Because I'm very worried about this and I feel that this has ruined my life totally and I'm still a young teenager and I'm very upset that I took these drugs.

But what about this thought disorder? I feel light headed and empty from inside. I feel that there is no information in my head and I feel my brain is totally empty. And I can't even think properly. Like while studying I don't know what to think about and when someone is talking to me I don't know what I should think about. Like I just see his lips moving and i feel blank from inside and confused and I don't actually listen to what he's saying. All this started 3 months after sulpitac and pacitane started and it's still not gone. I stopped sulpitac 1 month ago. And while taking sulpitac I used to get thoughts like what is the point of life? I felt like dying and I didn't feel like living and I felt I have the worst life(this was while taking sulpitac but now it's gone after I stopped it). Do I have a thought disorder? Has sulpitac caused it? Or do I just think that I have a thought disorder but actually I don't ? And my brain is giving me trouble. I feel that I've got a brain ache(not head ache). I feel that everyone else thinks in a different way than me and I feel that I need to get a brain surgery done. Now what do I do about all this? I used to be my class topper in my 9th standard but now in my 10th standard I started failing because of these drugs:(

Okay and when will these drugs be stopped? My board exams start on 26th February and I have to visit the new psychiatrist who prescribed despol and clonotril like 12 days before they start. And how/why do you think I got this illness? That also during the most crucial time of my life- the board exams? I had confidence that I will top the board exams but sulpitac made me lose it. I'm trying my best to top but I have all these problems while studying that's why I'm asking you what to do. I was also in bad company in school who used to bully me in April last year before starting these drugs. And will I be cured? If yes, then in how much time?

Yeah.. I already made my time table and schedule but I'm not able to follow it. I worked very hard for 4 hours making it but now when I sit down to study I'm not able to study because I feel that I'm going to die or collapse. I feel empty minded. I don't feel sad but I just feel that I'm going to die or collapse. And this feeling started 3 months after I started pacitane last year(I was studying for my exam last year and I was very stressed because of this problem that I'm going to die) and it's still not gone. My health is more important than my studies and only if I have good health then I can study properly. From outside I'm very healthy, I'm very good looking, my height is 6 2", I'm a regular gymmer(now I've temporarily stopped because of boards) but my mind is not healthy. This feeling that I'm going to die any moment and I'm empty minded keeps worrying me and I'm not able to study. I don't feel sad, I just feel I'm going to die or collapse any moment. Now what do I do about this?

But I don't feel depressed or sad... I just feel that I'm going to die or collapse. So what do I do about this? And whenever I try to study or read nothing goes into my head. My mind feels empty and I think about other things. I'm just looking at the words and staring at the book. And if I try to study I can't keep my mind open. I feel that my mind is closed and empty. And because of all this I'm not able to study so I don't follow my time table and it was a total waste making it. What do I also do about this?

I took my dosage of clonotril and dispol yesterday in the night, I'm feeling much better. My light headed XXXXXXX and empty mindedness has reduced a lot. But I only slept for 4 1/2 hours so that means that these drugs take away my sleep. So far they haven't caused any other side effect except for dryness of mouth(but it is less than kemadrin which used to cause excessive dryness). Will they cause any other very bad side effect later which will be during my boards? Because sulpitac and pacitane started causing their side effects 3 months after starting them. But I'm still feeling little confused and not conscious of what I'm doing. Now what do I do about this? I have taken 3 dosages up till now each night. But I'm still upset(not sad) that I have to take drugs and drugs are not good for health and I'm hoping that they will not shorten my lifespan or ruin my life later or anything. Is there any other solution for this illness instead of drugs such as going to the gym? And I'm also upset that my old psychiatriast gave me wrong drugs like sulpitac and pacitane which I took for 8 months and made me loose contact with reality, gave me weird and very negative thoughts and made me very confused. It was like wasting 8 months of my life.The feeling that I'm going to die or collapse has also reduced.

Yeah...you were right... It was depression and anxiety which was the problem. Now I'm feeling perfectly normal...all my negative thoughts have gone, I've forgotten about sulpitac, my brain stopped paining, my lightheartedness and empty mindedness have gone totally, I don't feel that I'm going to die, I stopped feeling I have the worst life and now I'm able to focus properly on my studies, I can keep my mind open and I have confidence now that I will top. I just wanted to ask you that dispol and clonotril will not cause very bad side effects during my board exams, right? Because sulpitac and pacitane were making me feel sick and confused while writing my preliminary examination and I don't want these new drugs to cause anything like that while writing my boards. Also, should I tell my parents to tell the principal of my school that I'm on anti depression drugs? Because people in my school were wondering why I was behaving in a strange manner in the past few months.. They don't know it was this psychiatric illness..

I've been taking the drugs daily but again I've started feeling empty minded and my brain is giving me trouble. I also feel week physically and I don't feel like doing things. Only on 1 day which is 2 days after I took the drugs I felt perfectly normal but now all these problems have again started happening. Now what do I do about this? Because of these problems I'm not able to study and I'm worried that later these should not cause problems the way sulpitac and pacitane did. Because even sulpitac and pacitane made me feel little better on the 1st day I took them but in the long run they caused so many problems like akathesia, acute confused state etc and were the wrong drugs so I stopped them. So will these new drugs (despol and clonotril) make me again feel fine and happy later after continuously taking them like they did on that 1 day (2 days after I took them) or they will cause problems?

What is a placebo effect? And I just researched about ariprazole that it has a serious side effect-neuroleptic malignant syndrome which is life threatening. And I've taken ariprazole for 25 days so I'm hoping that I don't get that. Will I get that? And I am visiting my new psychiatriast the day after. So do you have anything to say what I should tell him about these drugs? And I only feel like sleeping these days and I continuously get dry mouth, dry skin and feel week physically. Is that a side effect of despol and clonotril?

Okay and what about cipralex? My old psychiatriast had also prescribed cipralex along with arip and kemadrin. I took half the tablet on 5th XXXXXXX for 1 day but it just had too many side effects so I called him and he said to stop it. It was causing excessive yawning, constipation, erectile dysfunction, fever, vomiting, overactiveness, increased heartbeat, restlessness, fatigue, drowsiness etc. Should I start cipralex again or I should go for escitalopram? And if I take escitalopram will I have to take any other tablet with it? Because it is for both depression and anxiety so I won't have to take a separate tablet for each. And are there any drugs (such as antidepressants) which have not even a single side effect and are very costly and are imported and not made in India? I would want to go for those ones which are imported and have no side effects (not even a single one and not even a bit).

I just got to know why I'm feeling that I have this thought disorder, I feel I'm less intelligent, not able to focus on studies and all. My old psychiatriast gave me pacitane last year when I was only 15 and sulpitac. Pacitane was the thing which caused all these problems. 3 months after I started it, it made me develop delirium and very acute confusional state. I didn't know what was going on, I felt I was an alien and not a human being, my attitude towards everything changed. For example, while writing my exam paper in October I was feeling like an alien and I didn't know what I was doing, I was behaving abnormally, and because of all this I felt like committing suicide during my exam. I was totally confused and I didn't even know that I was confused. The way I used to treat things, everything changed, the way I used to look at things, my attitude towards everything changed. All this made me fail those exams and it was giving me thoughts that "why is the world like this"and all. Even while studying I was totally confused and when I stopped pacitane in January I became little conscious of what I was doing and stopped feeling like an alien and again felt that I was a human being. But the way I used to think about things, that is my attitude towards things has still not become normal the way it used to be before taking pacitane. I feel it has ruined my intelligence and people keep asking me what happened to me, why I suddenly started failing in studies and I feel ashamed to tell them that it is because of pacitane. Now what do I do about this delirium side effect of pacitane? Is it permanent? And it has even made me less intelligent (not less intelligent, it has changed my attitude towards everything and I am totally confused while I am studying and that is why I am not able to understand what I am studying). What do I do about all this? And why did my old psychiatriast give me amisulpride and ariprazole? They are used to treat schizophrenia and bipolar disorder and I didn't have either of them and now I feel that sulpitac has made me schizophrenic. And another side effect of sulpitac is Parkinson's disease and I'm worried that I will get it because I took it. Will I get it? And I am already very angry about all this and I'm not happy with my life because of what pacitane did to me

But is this delirium which pacitane develops permanent or just temporary till I take it only? And I am visiting my new psychiatriast today. And escitalopram won't help? Because you said it is not simple depression. So I will have to take other drugs also?

I visited my new psychiatrist today, he said that I don't have any psychiatric illness, it is just anxiety which is the problem which is causing depression. He told me to stop worrying that I will get Parkinson's disease and all and to stop thinking about my past about all that sulpitac, pacitane, ariprazole and all. He said that all the effects they caused were all temporary effects and to forget about them and to only think about my future. He continued despol 25mg and clonotril 0.25mg and said that after my boards get over, that is 23rd March, I can stop the drugs. What is your opinion about all this? And 2 days after I started despol and clonotril I felt perfectly normal, my anxiety had gone away but now it's come back. I was feeling fresh and happy that day but now I am not feeling the way I was feeling that day. I'm feeling tired, drowsy, and unfresh. Why is this happening? I thought that I would feel fresh and happy throughout till I take those drugs because they made me feel like that that day. My psychiatrist also told me to go for a walk daily.