Question: Dr Seikhoo Bishnoi. I closed out the query because I didnt have anything else to say. I am so sad. I dont care what I look like I dont eat I am not going to take any more pills except remeron and zanax. XXXXXXX is gone im in a lot of physical pain and nothing means anything to me anymore. Why doesnt my friend understand that I am not interested in another relationship or anything at all anymore? She lost a daughter to suicide ten years ago but I am not XXXXXXX I simply have no interest in anything. I cant talk to anyone about Muchael and I get that he is probably never coming back. My back and legs are so bad and I have so much pain I cant cook or clean. I dont have enough money to live on since XXXXXXX is gone. As soon as XXXXXXX gets more people to help her I am going to stop helping her. I just dont want to live anymore. Nothing means anything anymore. All my children are gone and XXXXXXX is gone. I dont know why I have to live anymore.whats the use?

I dont understand you. Why would I eveb if I could, ever want to move past XXXX? I have no interest ib movibg past XXXXXXX Im confused. U used to say have hope about him coming back. I cant forget him dont u see? I just feel sad about him. There is nothing left for me now.. I dont even wabt to see my son anymore. He doesn't want to talk about him either so we dont have abything to talk about. Nothing means anything anymore not without XXXXXXX
I justclay in bed hoping and waiting to die. im all alone now so nothing matters...dont u see? Nothing.. XXXXXXX no longer cares im in pain all the time its all over

I dont have anythibg to talk to XXXXXXX anymore. I dont care about my XXXXXXX I dobt ubderstand what u mean. XXXXXXX is dejected? What do u mean by that? I am not interested in anything or anyobe. Not anymore

I dont have any I terests in life. I dont want anything. I am just waiting to die. Thats all I want nothing else. I am stranded without money car XXXXXXX or XXXXXXX abd in terrible physical pain from a leg that won't heal. Cant go anywhere or do anythinbg and I almost never see XXXXXXX anymore. There is nothi g left anymore.

I just want to be lefy alone and die...no one is here...I dont want to move in or go to Israel. I told my son to scatter my ashes in Israel. If there was even a glimmer of hope that XXXXXXX loves me or would come back I might re consider but now there is nothing..

XXXXXXX wont talk to me for a month but I will be dead by then. He thinkd I hate him because I want to kill myself. Now more than ever I want to die. I guess I have pushed everyone away. Yhat makes it easier to kill myself..I am getting sleepy now so I have to go. No one to stop me thus time

I just found out that thevnew judge decided I did harass XXXXXXX and is upholding the injunction against me. Doesvthat mean XXXXXXX no longer lovesvme? Thevjudgevmade mention of me contacting him fro August to February. I am heartbroken. XXXXXXX vreally doesnt care for me anymore. How fouldvthat be ifvhe once loved me so much? Please help me to understand. He will only file another injunction against me again if I try to contact him after its over....I guess he really doesnt want contact anymore

So what do you think XXXXXXX feels for me now? If I try to contact him will he file another injunction? I am the criminal now because legally I am now the harasser stalker..I feel so sad and empty now

Im not contacting him. My question is, if he still cares abouy me why is he not dismissing the injunction? Why did the second judge uphold thr injunction and what made him stop lovinh me?
Tonight I called a crisis line and went to bed right after. Two cops pounded on my door and grilled me about taking mevto the hodpital for suicide. I ead sleeping! So that is added stress ancd fear. Now I have to move again.
But really why did XXXXXXX stop loving me and why is he keeping the injunction. If he lived me he would want to be with me righr? So its obvious he no longervloves

Why doesnt XXXXXXX live me any more? Its obvious he no longer loves me and doesnt even remember the love we had. Many people in my situation try contacting the person after thevinjunction is dropped only to be hit with more injunctions ovef abd over again. He doesnt even miss me. He sounded so happy the day he anseered the phone. He isvfine and Im suicidal. I had called crisis earlier and when I was peacefully sleeping cops were banging on my door trying to find a reason to haul me off tobthe hospital. I am so traumatized and aad and confused because XXXX no longer loves me..

Im taking lotvof pills and not eating. I cant cope with the tact XXXXXXX doesnt love me. Mayne he stopped loving me and isnt a schizo after all. I just dont want cops at my door. Do u think he no longer loves me? I cant contact him when the injunctionb is over because he doesnt want me anymore. So I dont want tovlive