Question: Dr Seikhoo Bishnoi. I am sad sometimes but not like I was. Still I cannot lose weight and don't have any appetitie. I eat because I have to. Last night I started getting really sad again about XXXXXXX and all I want to do when I get home is sleep. XXXXXXX is feeling the same way. The lack of money is really getting me depressed. I have no car and am older and not employable. There are no jobs here in this city as it has always been a depressed area and business fail here on a regular basis. Last night when i starrted feeling so sad as I had almost all day yesterday I took four zanax and it took four hours but I finally fell asleep.

Okay. but I have lost interest in much of life. I have no interest in doing anything but lying in bed. I don't want to go out with my friend and just want to sit at home and do nothing I have no purpose and XXXXXXX feels the same. He just wants to lie in bed all day too..I feel like just staying in bed. I have lost my appetite again and don't care if I eat or not. Going to temple sort of keeps me even but I am losing interest in that too. Not wanting to pray or read the bible or talk to anyone..just wanting to stay in bed. NOthing interests me anymore.Hello again. My apathy is still really bad but I am concerned about XXXXXXX too. His Dad is an abusive person and has been verbally abusive to him. I am not sure if he can stay with me as the park manager would have to agree. My friend XXXXXXX doesn't care if he stays here or not. The one bedroom would have to be shared but it might make both XXXXXXX and I less depressed. XXXXXXX is depressed because his Dad is abusive and so is his step mother not physically but mentally and emotionally. I am depressed because I have nothing to do and miss both XXXXXXX and XXXXXXX I will always miss XXXXXXX but this time if XXXXXXX is with me it wouldn't maybe be as bad...

Thank you Dr B. As much as I was in love with XXXXXXX I am more worried now that we Will never make it to Israel. Israewl means everything to me. But it also means moving on and a way to leave the past behind. I am afraid that XXXXXXX wont be able to stay here but more concerned we wont be able to go to Israel. I want to start over there so badly and leave the past bad life here behind. I need about $3000 to do that XXXXXXX wants to leave the US behind too> Things are getting bad here and we need help to leave. I can forget XXXXXXX better if I leave and there is more hope for a job in Israel.My life is so relentless in the poverty loneliness and problems. I have to pay back a $00000 loan I never received and already paid the $000 I owed over a year ago. My life is lonely and I am beginning to despise the fact that every single f####ing day I am stuck helping XXXXXXX who berates me and demands I pay for products I cannot afford. My life sucks with no end in sight. I just want to sleep again and am going to take a bunch of cardivol and fusemide and zanax and gabapentin. I am tired of the relently poverty sleeplessness and physical pain. I am not trying to kill myself on purpose but just want all the problems and relentlessness negativity and loneliness to stop. I am sorry but its not just about XXXXXXX anymore its about the hardness and poverty of my life in every way. XXXXXXX is getting on my nerves and I wold rather stay in bed in a semicomatose state. I can't keep living like this this isn't living.