Question: Dr Seikhoo bishnoi please. I feel so sad again about XXXXXXX .people on the crisis line tell me to move on that i had to take what the injunction is saying as XXXXXXX doesn't want any more contact with me but it is late and all I do is think of XXXXXXX I am not interested in life without him and will always be in mourning for him..I think that they think I am obsessing or delusional about him but I am not..it is all tied up with my love of and hearing from of God. I don't know how to cope when my feelings are so bad...counseling would be really good if I could afford it.

How do i accept that I will never see him again? Nothing seems worth living for anymore. He isn't getting help so even if the injunction passes there is no sense in trying to contact him again. He will probably just file another injunction on me again. I can't live without him..I don't want to live without him. XXXXXXX coming back is okay but unless I can go to israle nothing means anything in life to me anymore. He can be sick but still want to be with me so why doesn't he want to be with me. His disconnecting of his home phone to an unknown cell number means no one else can really contact him anymore either except for customers who call his store phone or his employee who may have his number...I am so sad and lonely for him it doesn't mean anything anymore for me to live...I still overtake pills but next time will do it the right way so I won't be coming back to live. I didn't get the rest of my tylenol damn it, I forget that when I went to the store. XXXXXXX will just have to learn to live with his Dad

It is hard right now because XXXXXXX cannot live with me but I am hoping if he gets a job and gets money that he will save enough for us to go to Israel The park I am living in will not let him live with me but if he saves money we can surely go to Israel..i can only hope that this won't take too long and if i can get a refund we will have enough money to go to Israel..UI cannot work as i don't have a car at present but maybe with my daughter's car I can still do some things..my leg problem makes it hard to work at all at much of anything. I am working for XXXXXXX but she doesn't pay me in money just the use of the massage beds..I hope that XXXXXXX works and can save some money..