Hello:
I am going through some major changes at this point. The recession in our economy was stressful for 2 years in a row. Then I managed to land a job in a place where the upper level manager is an emotional abuser. I sensed it from the moment that I had an interview with him as if he did not want me to work there. I reported directly to this other supervisor who did some questionable things like always being critical of my one co worker. He eventually fell ill and had a long term medical leave. I started to stress out as soon as he was gone. Then I learned of many different individuals that had come and gone within this particular group within a short frame of time. My supervisor eventually quit without another job lined up just like a few other individuals. Then I started getting blind sided by this upper level manager because we had no manager in between. I feel numb, still a bit bitter by his put downs because it was like I was his punching bag on an emotional level. I feel frozen about finding another job but I don't want to make the mistake of landing in another rough environment like the one that I had come from. He was borderline stalking me even while I ended up in the hospital.

I was just invited to 1 week of free endless fitness training courses for kickboxing. I managed to get through one short term temporary work assignment since then and I managed to get some sleep each night without waking up from bad nightmares where this man was physically attacking some woman that I was unsure who it was.

I don't want my fear to show up during my job interviews. What can I do to feel better and get into another poorly managed company? I am getting interviews, however, it's like I knew through strong intuition that something was wrong and I dismissed it because I felt that I had to take the position during tough economic times. This stressful job ended up landing me in the hospital.