You have already crossed the major first bump....you recognise you need help and are actively seeking help.....that's half the battle won for us.
Please check this website out called living lifetothefull.com. This is a free website by Chris Williams which tries to help you by using the so called 5 areas model......cognitivie behaviour therapy
in simple words. Thousands have used this website till now.
If you are acutely ill and need help, there is not other go than going to a doctor. If you are not able to go, there should be a way that you could ask for home visits by the doctor concerned. It all depends on your affordability or the health care system in your area I agree but if your life is getting affected so much then asking for a hoem visit by the doctor might be the first step.
Hope this helps.