Hello my real name is dreama I have always suffered with deprsion you can read my story and know why but I average about 15hours sleep a week I've been raped 4 times through out my life twice by one man and twice by one other man who was my uncle I am so good at helping others with there pain but can't help me I feel lke I'm on the edge it want take much for me to fall but I have server panic attacks I have bad mood swings sometimes vileont not toward nobody I just throw stuff or cry uncontrolably I really just don't know what to do anymore I mean I was molested as a very small child then the first rape I was 12 my dad killed hiself in 2000 I feeling like giveing up I can't even get a doctor tohelp me I have no insurance and I don't even have a penny in my pocket help me please before its to late I suffer from cronic pain from abuse from the years the only way I can get help is go to the hospital and now they think I just go for medican and that's not the truth I don't know what to do anymore please please help me