Dear Welcome to HCM We understand your concerns I went through your details. I suggest you not to worry much. The problem you are facing is not depression. It could be Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD). But I reassure you that the condition is fully curable if you also follow some simple psychotherapy techniques with the given medications. Thoughts are there to come and that is the duty of the brain. let the thoughts come. You need to divert the thoughts to more priority ones. Means be busy and divert thoughts. Relaxation and meditation plays an important role in controlling OCD. Plenty of water, oxygen and exercise most important. For more psychotherapy techniques, You can post a direct question to me in this website. Include every detail as much as you can. I shall prescribe some psychotherapy techniques to control your condition. I am sure that the techniques should be a success. Hope this answers your query. Available for further clarifications. Good luck.