Hi,Dr. Samuel Grief, I hate to bother you, but I really appreciate you, and I have a lot on my mind. It s just that, there are some decisions in my life that are simple to make. For example, I never had dental insurance, so now I m finally getting around to going to the dental college several times to get a deep cleaning, several fillings, etc. That s an easy decision to make. I m saving my teeth before they get too bad. But here s the hard decision: I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder three years ago right after I finished my math bachelor s degree and while I was working on my teacher s certificate. I never finished the teacher s certificate, so I ve been living with my parents since I graduated college because I couldn t get a real job. When I was in the mental hospital for two weeks, I thought I had schizophrenia because I said some weird things. I m actually bipolar, but I need some support. I know friends and family help. I don t have a girlfriend, but I don t know if I should. What I really wonder about is the spiritual aspect of things. I was an atheist who was angry that his parents went to Bible Colleges and ended up working in low jobs. That was why I went to a top university and majored in math. When I was at the mental hospital, a girl was into me and wanted to be my girlfriend, I tried yoga, I read the Bible a lot, and I was given a book that I ve been studying called The Power of Now by Eckhart Tolle, which later led to studying the philosophy of Alan Watts. I know that it s important to know exactly what you want in life before you pursue it, or you ll keep changing your mind and waste your time. I have been given advice by some people I respect that I should try to pass some actuarial exams (basically becoming a statistician for an insurance company). I could earn good money that way and use my math background. But I m afraid of working hard, which I will need to do in order to get anywhere, and then ending up having another nervous breakdown and being institutionalized. My psychiatrist is just a drug dealer who gets as many patients (who are poor) as he can so that he can just give them prescriptions but not any advice or therapy. The point I want to make is that I just need a support system that I can put all my faith in, like Jesus Christ (but I m too much of a skeptic), so that I can stop worrying so much. Once I stop worrying, I can find out exactly what I love as a career (I m not even sure what that should be), and then I will pursue it. I was able to earn my college degree without having support, but it led to mental illness because of stress with nowhere to turn. Right now, I just wish I knew what my religion or source of spirituality would be for psychological strength so that I can achieve goals in the real world. Also, I never took a psychology class, but I may have something called paralysis of analysis.