Dear
Welcome to HCM
We understand your concerns
I went through your details. The symptoms you are presenting here are never of
borderline personality disorder. This is one among many of BPD. Don't worry. But you must understand that you have obsessive thinking style and personality is obsessive type of personality. Before approaching a
psychiatrist, I suggest you to
consult a psychologist who should be able to diagnose your problem and suggest
psychotherapy and change in life style according to your personality trait. By doing so, this could be cured.
Secondly, please engage yourself in games, entertaining activities, reading, dancing etc so that you will be able not to allow your mind to wander. Once you get enough physical
fatigue, your sleep will be better without any dreams.
If you require more of my help in this aspect, please use this URL. http://goo.gl/aYW2pR. Make sure that you include every minute details possible.
Hope this answers your query. Available for further clarifications.
Good luck. Take care.