Dear Welcome to HCM We understand your concerns I went through your details. I suggest you not to worry much. From the details you gave in the first part about people, it is because you are having paranoid personality disorder possibly. Paranoid personality disorder (PPD) is a mental disorder characterized by paranoia and a pervasive, long-standing suspiciousness and generalized mistrust of others. Individuals with this personality disorder may be hypersensitive, easily feel slighted, and habitually relate to the world by vigilant scanning of the environment for clues or suggestions that may validate their fears or biases. Paranoid individuals are eager observers. They think they are in danger and look for signs and threats of that danger, potentially not appreciating other evidence. Due to the PPD you are having nightmares when you masturbate. These are inter related. In my opinion, you should see a psychiatrist for the treatment. Hope this answers your query. Available for further clarifications. Good luck.