im really sad. im lost. i have no direction. i feel i might be crazy. people tell me things. maybe im in denial? ive lost interest in lots of friends and being super pretty all the time. im lazy. ive lost interest in hobbies and i feel like everything is impossible for me. when im offended or hurt everything rushes back to me and im depressed about everything all over again. im really general about everything. sometimes i lose hope. i think about dying. going to heaven or something. how better it would be. but i never think about killing myself. i would never. ive been told im overdramatic by my parents when ive cried over something that really upset me. i dont feel loved sometimes. sometimes i feel everyone secretly hates me. ive been told that i could be bipolar or something. i get lost in thought. i forget a lot of things lately. i sleep all the time. im always tired. i cant get up in the morning no matter how hard i try . i dont want to accept that this is the life. all this money...