I understand your thoughts and feelings.
These happen in our daily life but I do not see this as a major depressive disorder
I am happy that you have understood your problem much earlier and much better.
It is right time to consult a psychologist
and seek help.
In my opinion, you do not need any anti-depressive medications. You just need a series of counselling
sessions and sharing thoughts with your doctor or counsellor.
Meanwhile, divert your thoughts to things that are more constructive. Learn a new hobby. Exercise regularly.
You should be fine soon.
My sincere well wishes to you.
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